“Fear brings failure. Faith brings success. It’s just that simple.”
~Ernest Holmes, Creative Mind & Success
“I cannot go back and make a brand-new start. But … I can start from now and make a brand-new end.”
AA, The Big Book, Personal Stories
Flip That Coin
I know better than to judge others. But I often feel those of us working a program in recovery are higher up the food chain than others who stay asleep to the wonder of it all. I do think we are certainly more evolved – a better way to put it… I am thankful for the dark depths of addiction that made the light of sobriety so much brighter.
Addiction itself is neutral. It is simply a fact for many (so many) people. One side of its “coin” is sobriety / recovery; the other is actively using. I am powerless over the fact that I have an addiction. But I can consciously choose to feed my sobriety, not feed my alcoholism. That is empowering.
Spirituality through Science of Mind had been an increasingly influential part of my life for a decade before I got sober. But the depth of my divinity was blocked by me from years of alcohol and other substances. I was misinterpreting my spiritual yearning and trying to fill a void with non-spiritual things.
When I finally came to believe that I was powerless over alcohol and my life had become unmanageable, the whole universe became increasingly illuminated. That spiritual light I had been dancing around for a decade came flooding in that first crack of awareness, acknowledgement, and acceptance.
Game changed forever.
At various points in the past I was in that weak “why me” place? Why do I have to be the one that goes too far and makes the bigger fool of myself? Why do I have to be the one to hurl one more smart-ass comeback than the other? Why do I have to be the one that can’t remember what happened after that? Why can’t I get addicted to yoga or steamed vegetables? Finally I got it that being addicted to anything would be the same … it’s the energy of the need for more… that’s the disease. Alcohol and drugs are but symptoms – what a strange yet empowering concept to grasp.
So kudos to those of us consciously active in recovery programs who get to be more aware, awake, and alive than those out there in reactive mode. I know several people who are sober by definition, but lack that deeper serenity that is available.
Makes life so much easier but best of all – so much more enjoyable. Spectacular even.
I thought alcoholism was a curse. The truth is that with the flip of a coin, it is a gift.
1. Do you know people who are “dry” but not in the sunlight of the spirit?
2. How has your recovery program evolved over time?
3. Did you ever find yourself in a “why me” mindset? What is your answer to that now?
In gratitude, harmony and support,