Faith: Step 2
Came to believe that a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.
Faith has to work twenty-four hours a day in and through us, or we perish.
I live in the faith that there is a Presence and Power greater than I am that nurtures and supports me in ways I could not even imagine. I know that this Presence is All knowing and All Power and is Always right where I am.
From early childhood, I always had faith that there was something greater than me out there. I just never realized I was connected to it. The key phrase was “out there.” I was very much “in here”, in my head, intellectualizing, affirming and demonstrating separation. Growing up in a home with slightly more than zero teaching or affiliation with religion, God, or spirituality, I developed a sarcastic and suspicious view of it all, despite the fact that I truly sensed it was real. However, without personal access, I resented it and I resented others who seemed to easily be part of it.
In truthful hindsight, I wanted access and wanted to feel guided, guarded and protected. Instead I acted out like a child crying out for attention, doing things that ultimately ensured I would feel little to nothing – using various substances to numb. My mission to stubbornly demonstrate separation began in my teens and ended in midlife. My primarily vehicle was alcohol, which was socially acceptable and easily accessible.
I spent a lot of time in judgment, self-righteously verbalizing what I did not believe, while mocking the believers who ironically seemed to have peace in their lives. I spent many hours over many pitchers of margaritas with other small minds, scoffing at the Sunday church-goers who believed in traditional religions and in the bible. Hypocrites, I declared, painting with a broad brush, basing it on a small number of folks I knew that actually were hypocrites. Not really understanding the shadowy parts of my own self that were as hypocritical as anyone on the planet. In those days, that was the farthest thing from my mind.
Science of Mind teaches me to focus in positive ways on what I do believe, and watch it demonstrate and expand in positive ways. So today I focus and declare my Sobriety. I Am Sober. I focus on observing, knowing, and celebrating that there really is a Presence and Power greater than I am that nurtures and supports me in ways I could not even imagine. What I find amazing is how powerfully and wisely it has always has been nurturing and supporting, even in my ignorance of it. I realize I am not now, nor have I ever been separated from it. This faith runs in and through me twenty-four hours a day and sustains, enlivens and nurtures me. In fact it keeps me sane.
• Do you feel your early teachings helped or hindered your spiritual growth?
• Did you have to open to a different way of thinking to get to where you are today?
• Was it hard or was it easy?
• What is your favorite way to connect to your Higher Power today?
In gratitude, harmony and support,