One night in the midst of a particular trying evening, I could see my daughter talking to me but I couldn’t hear her words: not because I was drunk, but because my head was ringing and I felt severe panic in my chest. I retreated to my bedroom and in a moment of clarity, I remembered the good healing energy I had felt when I had a meditation practice during my yoga teacher training. So I sat down and tried to just be with myself. I spent the next ten minutes of my “meditation” bawling my eyes out, but I feel better afterwards. That’s when I made a commitment to myself that I would carve out time EVERY SINGLE DAY to meditate.
As I look forward to the sweet and spooky days to come, it is the perfect time to stand calm and courageous. I boldly remove my mask and let my light shine like the warm glow of an October sunset. Any fears and beliefs that no longer serve me gently fall away like leaves fluttering to the ground. I am grateful to know that I am in the perfect place. I know that what falls away gives space for new growth that will come at the perfect time.
Right here and right now in this present and precious moment, I sense and allow the powerful awareness of Universal Intelligence to permeate my cells. I am one with this Infinite Intelligence. It infuses me with a calm sense of awareness and acceptance as I acknowledge and welcome each and every one of my experiences.
I try to remember to be mindful of what I put after the extremely powerful word duo of “I AM.” That becomes my life experience. I Am… what I decide I am. Actually the way it works is that: I Am what I believe I am, no more, no less. If I want to know what I truly believe about myself, the clues lie in my results, situations, and circumstances. That’s the good news and the wake-up-call news. Those clues tell me what I currently believe to be possible or not for me.
We moved into our home about 2 ½ years ago. A potentially cozy and very lived-in dwelling in a––shall we say––“mature” neighborhood. As I gazed into the backyard, my mind’s eye saw a beautiful, lush, and fragrant oasis, with flowers infusing vibrant splashes of color among the trees and shrubs. A perfect blend of cool shade and bright sun, invitingly serene and full of life. My human eyeballs told a different story. There were more dirt spots that grass, and the sparse grass that existed was dried out and hay-like. The fence was rickety, and the back porch had holes.
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I sense new ideas, new opportunities, and new situations ready to be born through me, about to be nurtured into a thriving existence. As I peer into the beautiful and enchanted month of May, the month that honors the female energy, I see Mother Nature expressing fully, naturally, and vibrantly right now, and so am I. I trust the process as I give life to that which comes to be by means of me. I use my breath to center me when I need to; it’s that easy and that available.
To my former and un-recovering self, it was simply subtle semantics between non-attachment and detachment but I discovered a lot of hidden power lurking there once I realized the difference. Non-attachment is something I strive for. Detachment is not, according to my perception of their meanings. When I get attached to specific outcomes, aka have expectations, it’s very likely that disappointment and future resentments will follow. Expectations are resentments on deck, waiting to step up and hit.