Peeling the onion is one of the many phrases, slogans, and concepts in recovery. It is an appropriate comparison that makes sense to me… think of those thin almost translucent layers that suddenly are ready to slide off and be shed, released. Almost imperceptible to the whole but one layer closer to the core, to the center.
By default or design – that is the way one of my teachers explains how I experience each and every day. I get it. Consciously deciding daily (at least once, often frequently) to re-up my commitment to my sobriety, to myself, and to my higher power nature. That is the only way I get to design the experience I want in my sobriety, in the way I relate to people, places, and things, and to life itself. Otherwise I may default to my prior, less skillful ways of behaving and interacting.
One day fairly early on in my sobriety I returned home before my then-husband was home from work. My first conscious thought that evening was, “Oh good I can meditate for a few minutes and center myself.”
Gratitude is everything. It is the magnet that attracts more things worthy of gratitude. It is reciprocal and expansive. It somehow telegraphs to the Infinite that there is an open, active, and receptive energy in play.
It was pointed out to me that a television will only broadcast the station to which it is tuned. Of course there are other things available but if my tuner is set on one thing, that is all I will see.
I learned a new concept this week as I took my 5 year chip (sobriety commemorative coins given at meetings) in honor of this momentous milestone for which I am so grateful.
Oh how I long for yesterday – well not really. With the utmost respect for Paul McCartney this wistful phrase does not particularly apply to me and to other alcoholics as far as I can tell. Sure there are moments from the past that I would like to repeat, and others I only wish I could do over.
Every day I read from inspirational books, quotes, and blogs. It’s very helpful, highly recommended, and part of the programs. However no results come if the action piece is not there. Wishing, dreaming, and even believing are good starts but without action nothing changes.