Living Proof in Black and White

Living Proof in Black and White

Do you ever ask the universe to show you a sign if you’re on the right track? I got an unsolicited sign this weekend in the form of a front cover photo and article which featured me in the VC Reporter, a cool weekly publication that serves Ventura County. No sooner had I affirmed and committed to stepping into Recovery Consciousness more fully, and had taken some specific actions around it (which I think is really the key), did the Universe mirror back me that this is indeed the right track alright.

Recovery Consciousness

Recovery Consciousness

Hooray – made it through the first week of this new year. I’m always happy when the holidays come, and even happier when they go and things go back to “normal.” Even though a part of me rebels against structure, I rely upon it sometimes to help me know what to do. And the joy of a fresh, uncluttered, wide-open calendar feels so freeing to me… My intention is to stay vigilant and add to it only those things I choose. (Wouldn’t that be nice?! Is it even possible?)

Reinventing Myself in Healthy Ways

Reinventing Myself in Healthy Ways

I started drinking alcoholically on New Year’s Eve, 1974. I was 13 years (and three months) old. I had taken a drink many times before. A sip of wine from Mom’s glass, a few drops of champagne for a toast, a bit of watered-down scotch from my uncle’s tumbler once he nodded off––that kind of thing. But the first time I “got drunk” was 12/31/74. I was at my best friend’s house, and we raided her parents’ bar. And I do mean raided. Marauded might be closer to the truth . . .

Vulnerable Canyon – Part 2

Vulnerable Canyon – Part 2

The opposite of addiction isn’t sobriety. It really is connection – FRIENDSHIP. It has taken many years but I finally like myself again and have the “peeps” I feel good to be with in my life. For me, a few close friendships are absolutely vital to my Recovery. I can’t do this alone, it is too hard… the connections I have with my friends now are all HEALING. The ones that aren’t I just don’t give my energy to anymore. I finally understand the “love yourself first” concept – in sustainable Recovery, you must be able to recognize what empties you and what fills you up emotionally and spiritually.

Easy to be Hard

Easy to be Hard

Recent conversations inform me that I tend to default to easily noticing when things feel hard, uncomfortable, are not working out, or not working out quickly enough. It’s easy to feel that it’s hard. But when things are easy, gliding along effortlessly I’m often not consciously aware of it – I can almost discount it as “oh yeah, but it’s actually hard…” then seek out, emotionalize, and pick up what’s “hard.” What if I could catch those moments when things effortlessly glide along, and shine a mental spotlight on them in that moment?

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