The Urge to Be Controlling

The Urge to Be Controlling

Every control freak moment is actually just my mind going into self-pity mode or self-righteous mode. I notice, ask myself the question, and call the story out. Sometimes the stories will pop back up, but I see through them. They have lost their power. Stressful situations are not about being right or being mistreated—they’re about my choices. No one makes me do anything. So, I don’t have to control anyone. When the stories try to destabilize me, I used to overcompensate by seeking control…

Recovery Consciousness: Do You Want the Good Stuff?

Recovery Consciousness: Do You Want the Good Stuff?

Every single day that I am sober is proof of a miracle and reminds me that there is something much larger than myself out there. Because I did not do this. My thinking got me in much worse places than the rooms of Alcoholic’s Anonymous… I cannot deny that there is a power greater than myself, for I am sober, period. When I live a spiritual life, I feel more connected to all of life––to myself, to the people I surround myself with, to each moment. I feel more full. I am able to notice things I have never noticed before…

Being a Mom in Recovery

Being a Mom in Recovery

I’m a sober mom. I don’t drink alcohol. Ever. I went through my sh*t, dug myself out, and am now a mom in recovery. It’s been the most challenging work of my life, but I’ve gotten to a point where I’m so grateful for everything I’ve been through. I appreciate the little things in life more than I ever have before, and I have emerged as the best version of myself. Still, being in recovery can feel lonely at times. And being a mom in recovery? Maybe even more so. Here is what I want you to know about my life as a sober mom.

My Father’s Daughter

My Father’s Daughter

Father’s Day card shopping was always stressful. I’d go through dozens of cards. Nothing fit. All I wanted was one that said Happy Father’s Day, period. But those were scarce. Mostly they dripped with sugary sweet sentiments like “Dad, you are the beacon of our family,” “You always had time for me and showed me how things were done,” or “You taught me right from wrong.” And the clincher: “I hope when I grow up, I’ll be just like you.” That was the last thing I wanted. But, ironically, that’s exactly what happened.